the more i think about it the more i’m really excited that 2011 is over!!!!!! i think i can finally come to peace with everything that has happened this year and let it all go. i’ve made a lot of really bad decisions. among the obvious things (succumbing to alcoholism, smoking, “hook ups,” etc.), i’ve lied to my friends, lied to my parents and wasted a lot of time that i could have spent productively. but every mistake and every fault or blunder has made me better and wiser. i think this is what they call “growing up” ha ha. i’ve allowed some major events to completely screw me up. i just need to accept those things and move on.
but anyway this year i’m going to do the things i want to do. i’m going to DO THINGS. i want every day to be an adventure. i’m not going to let my anxieties or my shyness consume me to the point that i refuse to let myself be happy or have fun.
i’m going to speak up more because i’m almost a grown-up and at some point i have to start talking about the things that are important to me. i have to stand up for myself etc.
it’s time to move past the trials and trivializations of yesteryear :-) it’s all over and done with now. i don’t want to forget all the bad feelings and worries and heartache but i don’t want to hold onto them any longer.
so here’s to a good year!!!! here’s to good feelings and optimism and strength and wit and humor. here’s to happiness and productivity and generosity. here’s to hoping
here’s to hopping
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