February 2011
33 posts
need: direction
January 2011
51 posts
today was so weird god just everything about it.
i think the highlight was (in technical theatre) going into the orchestra pit because we had to take the platforms out of the stage. it was so creepy down there! it smelled musty/old like hamsters and death and there were dead crickets EVERYWHERE. it was kind of really cool though.
i already have lots of plans for this weekend :3 including...
jkljkdfasjkladfsjkl hi sometimes i feel like i will never feel like i really “Belong” anywhere
i think
i think i have just epitomized being a teen
guys that’s it i’ve hit rock bottom
literally what is this post
god
hello today was fun i think!!!! i picked up blair and we went to target and sally’s and ulta and sonic and drove around forever and yeah it was good i really enjoy this whole license thing.
also i went to petland and they hire at 16 i really wanna work here :-)
Whats your middle name?
marie
How big is your bed?
double bed
What are you listening to right now?
jesse mccartney beautiful soul…..
What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
0523
What was the last thing you ate?
pizza
Last person you hugged?
my dad
How is the weather right now?
humid i think
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
sandy
...
what is happening
what
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i thought about doing something with my friends but all two of them are busy.
second day of having a driver’s license and here is what i did: watched a movie!!!! at home!!!!! by myself!!!!!!!!!
didn’t place in anything
i realize being upset over this is dumb especially because it’s only my second competitive writing event and first uil event ever, but i’ve always felt that writing was one of my strong points
and if i’m not good at one of my strong points, then where does that leave me????
i felt really good about the uil stuff until i learned that no one from our school placed in news writing and then the only one to place in feature writing isn’t even on newspaper! she’s on yearbook!
they haven’t posted results for editorial or headline writing but lord knows i didn’t place in either of those
so uh
cool
i had a dream that i kept touching really hot things like my flat iron and there were blisters all over my hands
no thanks :(
hey kiddos i took the test again and got my licenseo today!!!! after failing yesterday yes yesysyeysyes
so lizzy came over after school and we went to get ice cream and then i went to her house and blatantly lied to my parents and told them i was going to stay at her house!!! we didn’t though we went to target! it was so much more badass than it sounds okay. i feel really bad when i lie...
if i can’t handle high school
or stress
and if the fact that it’s 1045 makes me want to die
and if i deal with problems by throwing up and throwing a tantrum and sitting in the middle of the floor pulling my hair and then blogging about it
how am i ever going to get anywhere or do anything in life ever
if chris lenzy texts me one more time esp with =O i will just end myself
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“who’s more important, me or that bible?”
– fahrenheit 451
getting my license in two days HOLLA
sad news is this is the DAY after i would like to be basking in the glow of hellogoodbye in austin, texas. ok :(
i didn’t do my english homework over the weekend so today i ate lunch in the journalism room to finish it. no one was in there except sandy who was watching the today show so i just put in my ipod and worked/ate lunch. god it was so peaceful and nice i guess this makes me “antisocial” but whateva man it was fantastic.
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i got a dreamcatcher and last night was the first night i slept with it above my bed
i dreamt of lesbians
i’m
too timid for my shirt
hi these are my Teenage Confessions
okay i guess i went to blair’s birthday party and i guess i was offered weed but i said No. offically a teenager now HOLLA. no lol i mean i would like to get high at least once in my lifetime just because i think i would be funny, but tonight was not the night. cristian found wine and i had some. welp.
SURPRISINGLY it wasn’t as awful as i thought it would be. the party, not the...
suddenly i’m “busy” wow. last night i went to musical rehearsal/meeting thing and then skyped w/ alison forever and stayed up until 4 doing God Knows What. today i went to another rehearsal to do props stuff and it was somewhat productive but also not!!!
i’m going to dinner in 1.5 hours with the Fam and then going to vivian’s for blair’s birthday...
sometimes i legitimately wonder if i’m surrounded by wonderful people - like the people at my school are the nicest, funniest, most attractive, etc - but i’m just too stupid to notice and too inept to be friends with them.
things that are frustrating: trying not to be self-conscious and subsequently becoming even MORE self-conscious.
i guess i’m on props now!!! i really genuinely like everyone on the crew and it’s going to be 239419912 times better than romeo & juliet. i just have to get in the mindset of actually being on props because i was so set on doing lights aka not doing anything. like,...
alright i’m making a list titled “essiting things to do”
it used to be all the things i want to do when i get my license, but now it’s mostly just fun things i want to do. my Goal is to do all these things before summer i guess.
i’m taking ideas from everywhere. overheard conversations, books, movies, tumblr posts. i don’t know if this makes me terribly...
lol oh my god
me: how's boarding school is it boaring hahahhaha get it
sam: haha got expelled
i have this idea for the end of the year. i’ll invite my tech class over to my house and i’ll hang up big white sheets along my fence and get tons and tons of paint and we’ll paint and make cute pictures and whatever and sign all our names blahblahblah
and then whichever sheet looks the prettiest, we’ll give that to keith at the end of the year.
ooh we could maybe even...
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kleo: YOUNG FRANKENSTEEEEEEIN
kris: SENILE FRANKENSTEIN
kleo: MIDLIFE CRISIS FRANKENSTEIN
kris: ANGSTY TEEN FRANKENSTEIN
kleo: INFANT FRANKENSTEIN
kris: POST GRAD FRANKENSTEIN
kleo: SOME RANDOM PROSTITUTE'S EGG
FRANKENSTEIN
You have a baby girl, what’s her name?
lucy maybe. or delaney. or macy.
Baby Boy?
something real douchey like ace.
Is it cute when boys kiss you on your forehead? yes. maybe.
Do you want to get married when you’re older? maybe
Do you trust any girls?
yes
Would you ever get your lip pierced? nope.
Would you rather be 3 inches taller or shorter than you are now? shorter
Have you ever...
sometimes i feel like such a bitch and i worry about this so much because all i want is for people to like me.
i’m terrible.
aliwhit asked: Emma and I were thinking about you today. We miss you and love you.
That is all.
That is all.
i’m so bad at pretending and acting that i like a person when i don’t. it’s so painfully obvious when i don’t want to be around someone. it’s a terrible trait.
i should stop being a bitch :-(
i don’t know what’s wrong with me except that i have the urge to cry whenever i talk to people and i’ve been in a bad mood forever and it’s starting to get really hard to be “friendly” with my “friends” and everyone i miss has pretty much Gotten A Life so no one talks to me and yeah okay that’s it i guess.
She tends to proceed with caution due to her fear of rejection. This attitude makes in difficult for her to earn respect or develop close relationships.
“Feels unappreciated and in an unpleasant position. Needs personal recognition and the respect of others, since she has not been about to find partners who value the same things she does. she holds back her emotions and is unable to give...
i hate the way people handle situations.
i hate the way i handle situations.
god my entire family is so ridiculous.
no one TALKS about anything. and when they do, it’s all so forced and politically correct and asdkflsdjf this isn’t your business meeting or some fucking tv show this is our HOUSE.
my mom just had two surgeries so she’s pretty much on bed rest, plus the lasick surgery didn’t work so she can’t see. and my dad is mad at the...
can i just have my driver’s license now
every time i get invited to a cty reu on facebook i die a little inside
hi i'm a "generous artist"
i read all this and thought “no it’s too good to be true”
but lol my femininity score
nothing is really okay and i don’t know how to fix it
i hate how much time i waste.
in other news, i was very sociable today. i feel like if i was more social all of the time i would be happier, i might be in a relationship, etc.
I HAD A REALLY GOOD DAY TODAY DAMN
this is my day in bullet form. it’s not for you!!!
my outfit ended up looking pretty Badass (or at least i thought so!!!!)
i ran home from the bus stop to get my gym bag so i was late to the bus but i didn’t get written up or anything
i skipped the fitnessgram
shingle family reunion
lizzy and i found victor right away this morning and we sat outside the tech room and drank gross...
does taking ridiculous amounts of pictures of yourself have something to do with insecurity? maybe? i don’t know
like i Hate the way i look and i guess i have my fair share of fun on photobooth!!! but other than that i would rather not be in pictures at all. just put the damn camera away.
but there are some people blair that take feel obligated to a picture of themselves every five...
SO MY DAD JUST EXPLAINED TO ME ALL THIS STUFF ABOUT COLLEGE SCHOLARSHIPS AND THE GI BILL AND ETC ETC AND HE SAID WILLIAM & MARY/OTHER OUT-OF-STATE SCHOOLS ARE LESS OF AN IMPOSSIBILITY.
THIS IS SUCH GOOD NEWS!!!!!!! CAN I JUST GO TO COLLEGE NOW
jfc what is wrong with me
your lungs?
they aren’t filled with air, they’re filled with empty words and forced conversation.
these empty pages hold more substance than you.
this was my day
one of my really good friends told me he has clinical depression
i decided that almost all of my friends are clinically something
also my dog is sick and it’s really upsetting