February 2012
7 posts
i guess i’m putting together a resume for my prospective internship(s) and it’s literally the most overwhelming thing i’ve ever done
corporate america terrifies me
i think it would pretty swell to have like a girlfriend or something
hey kids how’s it goin
i’ve had this sense of tranquility all week and it’s been kind of weird but also nice because finally i’m at peace with myself and with everything else.
an article i wrote for the recorder is going to be published in a local magazine :-) not only that, but i might have an internship with the same magazine for the summer. this is a really exciting...
i really hate when people don’t make eye contact when they talk to you!!! makes me uncomfortable. i mean i don’t need constant eye to eye action but when you look at the other person you are acknowledging that you are interested in what they are saying! i want the people i converse with to at least feign interest!!!
anyway, as always, hanging out with ayleen and ana (sans molly...
cue whiny teen girl post
i’m so tired of high school and all this stupid drama and i think every time i open my mouth i fuck something else up so from now on i’m going to stop doing that
stop opening my mouth, i mean.
i don’t know why i always end up around those people who gossip and stir up trouble but i do and then i get caught right in the middle and let me tell you i am...
sometimes i remember that i’m seeing fun. in two months and then everything is right with the world :-)
hi guys musical is over back to being a person again!
January 2012
19 posts
today i woke up early to go to school and take pictures/get quotes for the annual reagan band 5k. it was actually really fun? i like covering school events and all the band kids were really nice and cooperative and helpful and etc. the drum line flirted with me.
i picked up breakfast tacos for my dad and i then i came home for an hour, uploaded pictures and wrote my news story, and then went...
i miss you but i just miss you really as a friend and i wish things could go back to being the way they were before i messed everything up!!!
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alison whittington and victor carrillo are my favorite people in the whole world and there’s nothing you can do about it.
ok we’re going to make like 1865 and RECONSTRUCT!!!
i’m going to do things right and i really mean it this time and this blog is a testament to my commitment.
i’m going to focus less on myself and my **emotions** and more on other people
i’m going to procrastinate less
i’m going to spend less time on The Internet and more time doing productive things
i’m...
we’re going to get over this quickly. like a band-aid. only faster.
well i guess “we had a nice run” ”i’ve learned from my mistakes” “this is probably for the best”
i was in a horrible mood all day but i managed to be nice to mostly everyone :-) in fact, i think i’m a more pleasant person when i’m trying to compensate for a bad mood.
i’m going to ayleen’s house later to watch movies!! good....
yesterday my psych teacher was talking about asperger’s. he said “people with it are really smart but typically have social problems — they’re quirky.” he talked about how they have trouble functioning in social situations.
that’s uh
that’s me.
oh and guess what!!!! we may be going to new orleans in the summer and then iceland for new year’s :-)
hi
ok wait i have a muscle cramp
ok we’re good.
if i could plan out my life here and now here’s how it would go:
i would graduate from high school with lots of scholarships and some nice memories and immediately invest in an almost entirely new wardrobe. i would attend the university of texas at austin and i would have a really cute dorm and a good circle of friends and i would...
things that are cute:
mormons on facebook
things that are nice:
i won things today! and michelle did too :-) i placed 5th in editorial, 3rd in headlines, and 1st in news.
things i’m going to do today:
download music nap finish my english essay
i had a nice day!!!!! i was in a good mood and funny things happened. jeff tucker is the student aid in my psych class! score. in class we had to write our three biggest priorities on life in pieces of paper and throw two of them away until we were left with our main one. predictably, mine were
you know what fuck this i don’t really want to finish this story. it’s boring. why...
this is a weird thought but i’m never going to be 16 again
wow i’m dumb
“putting my foot in my mouth” doesn’t even begin to cover it
this blog is centered too much around me.
it was okay when i only posted occasionally, but i post on a daily basis now and as my blogging has evolved so have thoughts that are completely self-absorbed. all i think about is ME.
talking about myself may or may not be the point of keeping a personal blog, but i really want to start talking - and more importantly, thinking - about things other than...
i forgot how much i hate school until i walked in the doors today and experienced immediate anxiety and also the urge to cry. that aside, today really wasn’t that bad! i looked cute enough. psychology is going to be fantastic i’m so excited to learn so many things in that class! it’s pretty much already my favorite. plus hannah told me to sit behind her so maybe we’ll...
everything is cleaned and organized for school tomorrow and i’m sitting here painting my nails a beautiful shade of grey called “chinchilly” and when i’m done i’ll finish my biology notes.
this is all going very nicely this semester is off to a good start.
my favorite new year’s eve is still the one where we were in germany with a bunch of family friends and my mom was sick so just my dad and i went with everyone to the town square or w/e for the countdown. there were ice sculptures everywhere and crazy drunk europeans. at midnight my dad kissed me on the cheek and let me have a sip of his champagne. it was a really nice moment.
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wherein it's new year's eve
wait oops i typed up a whole long thing and then closed the page and now it’s gone forever :-( all right well here we go again.
six flags was super cute! the lights looked good. we didn’t try to ride rides or anything. okay well we rode the carousel. but mostly we just walked around and michelle and i took pictures. lizzy and victor kept running off together which was silly, but...
December 2011
45 posts
aw tonight is going to be really good
michelle’s picking lizzy and victor and i up at six and we’re gonna go look at the krismas lights at six flags and take pictures or whatever and then afterwards we’re going to vivian’s to party hard :-)
things actually go really smoothly when i’m not coordinating every event. weird.
the more i think about it the more i’m really excited that 2011 is over!!!!!! i think i can finally come to peace with everything that has happened this year and let it all go. i’ve made a lot of really bad decisions. among the obvious things (succumbing to alcoholism, smoking, “hook ups,” etc.), i’ve lied to my friends, lied to my parents and wasted a lot of time...
dinner was nice but i hate social events that revolve around me because i spend the whole event worrying about other people!!! i was really worried that zach and kye weren’t having fun - because they weren’t - but that’s dumb of me because i don’t think they really ever have fun.
but anyway yeah i was just kind of tense the whole time and i need to not do that! also...
day 10: new year resolutions.
stop being so sad for myself!!!!
quit eating so much
end this writer’s block
stop letting others’ negativity influence me
stop allowing my relationships (or lack thereof) to consume me
have a good year
i’m gonna do it you guys
it’s gonna be a good year from start to finish i’m gonna make it happen
oh and stop leaving major assignments until the very last...
day 9: the end of last school year/the beginning...
end of last year
i was a little sad it was over
i had no idea what would become of summer
i said good-bye to a lot of people
i think i said good-bye to a little of myself
beginning of this year
i was nervous
i didn’t really talk to anyone
i immediately fell into some sort of depression
i refused to be happy
stress
i’m glad a lot of this has improved!!!
day 8: the funnest getaway.
waco! and virginia. all the museums. austin. las vegas.
day 7: your birthday.
it’s still a work in progress
the actual day was boring albeit nice and i got a really neat camera!!!
day 6: your best friend(s).
victor
kleo
lizzy
alison
blair (?)
day 5: the most memorable moment.
i don’t know i’ll come back to this.
day 4: the worst day.
there were a lot of bad days but none of them so horrific that they stand out? i think the day i skipped half the day of school without telling anyone was one of my lowest lows.
day 3: the best day.
maybe the day we went to waco. yeah i choose that one.
day 2: relationship(s).
where do i start um
my relationships - this is inclusive of all relationships, not just romantic ones - with everyone have changed this year. i don’t even know how to explain it. i think the people that are far away got farther, and the people in my immediate proximity got closer.
i went from being good friends with josh and maybe more to having absolutely nothing to do with him ever in...
day 1: a few things you will never forget about...
the day i got my license
my slow progression into alcoholism
waco
summer parties and summer crushes
“camping”
the moment victor told me he loves me
minneapolis
the emotional breakdowns
mormon prom
cake
2o11 in words + photos
january: texans game (above 1) + matt and kim’s sidewalks (above 2) + license!!!! + blair’s birthday party + props crew
february: josh lewis loved me + i lied to my parents a lot + whalentine’s day + my brother in 12th night (above 1) + photo adventures with lizzy (above 2) + arcades (above 3)
march: on location reporting (above 1: covering a...
lol looking through my blog and i hated blair this time last year too
weird
wow this break has been super weird! i mean it’s not over yet but basically i’ve been a roller coaster of emotions which is odd considering i’ve spent most of my time in my room sleeping or doing yoga. i think the problem is whenever i get a lot of free time i just end up thinking a lot and that makes me a wreck.
i’m going to do that new year’s survey i did last...
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i’m going to take a nap and then wake up and do yoga and there’s nothing anyone can do to stop me!!!!!!!!!!
can you just take your negative energy and your passive aggressive behavior and your dumb party planning (or lack thereof) and just go elsewhere please because i think i’m done being friends with you. i’m pretty sure that being around you makes me nothing but miserable. it’s not that you’re never good to me because you can be and you’re really hospitable and...
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the birthday party i didn’t ask for is Cancelled
i just want to sleep until the end of times
such a good krismas eve you guys (:
we went to a christmas party and i looked super cute and my mom’s friend michelle showered me with compliments the whole time!! and there was good food and eggnog and just good company i guess.
and then Presents. god okay my brother got me a fun. poster and i died. it’s gorgeous i love it so much EXCEPT I DON’T KNOW WHERE I’M GOING...
this is most certainly NOT what i should be doing right now,
but i want to talk for a second about what i’ve learned this year. i’ve learned that being comfortable with people is okay, and that it’s easier with alcohol. i’ve learned that being funny isn’t as much of a skill or a talent as it is an accident and that stressing over saying the funniest thing is...
sometimes i don’t get you and it’s hard and more importantly than that i don’t get myself and i can’t focus on learning all of u.s. history from the time of columbus up until the reconstruction era bECAUSE I’M TOO BUSY WISHING YOU WERE HERE
WHY AM I SO TIRED ALL THE TIME